A Year in Review

One year ago today I felt like a complete failure. I was lost. I wasn't sure what was next. The loss of one job, which I hated might I add, made me question myself and every aspect of my life. I was afraid of what people would think of me, especially the ones closest to me. Would they think I was a failure too? It is funny how the loss of one job can turn your world upside down when in all honesty it is really just a job. You get comfortable at that job. You are on a path. You are doing well, so you must be successful right? You have a "purpose" and then in an instant it is gone. Your world seems shattered. Your self confidence is crushed.

And then you slowly realize that at least you have people in your life that you care about and in turn care about you. At least you are healthy. At least for the most part you are happy, so why is it that this one loss is so life altering? It changes everything. It makes you re-access what is important, who is important in your life, and what really truly make your life better. It is a learning process. A day to day battle.

I can finally say that I am okay with failing. This past year I have learned more about myself, then I would have staying on the so destined path of adulthood. I am proud that I pushed through. I am proud that I changed my path. And for the first time in my "adult" life I am excited for what's to come.