And it Begins...

I feel like a child anticipating the first day of school, only I am 28. I am nervous about starting this new adventure. I am nervous about entering the academic world again. I am nervous about how I am going to manage this and find a job that will accommodate my new schedule.

Through out life, people have little choice in their schooling and how it will affect and shape them. At a very early age, your parents enroll you in preschool, then kindergarten, then elementary school. You pass through middle school where the biggest choice you have is which quarter you take economics and which you take shop. High school you can choose a few electives along the way that interest you more than others, but it really isn't a matter of how those two classes will affect you, they simply help pass the time. Now comes college. Personally, I had no clue what I really wanted in life. Who does at 18? So I went through the motions, not owning full decision on where I went to school (money mattered, scholarships mattered, parental opinions mattered ALOT). So the school was chosen, not my personal first choice. I decided I wanted to major in Marketing, because it was more creative than Management and definitely not teaching, which I could not see myself doing at all. And so my fate was decided, all because I knew what I didn't want to do. I didn't have enough life experience to fully understand where I wanted to go in life, what interested me the most (mainly because up til then I had very little part in these decisions), and all in all I was just excited to get away from home. Who thinks about a career when you are just about to be set free in the world to do as you please? I certainly wasn't. Shortly after I arrived at school, I was thinking where am I gonna get that fake ID, not what career is going to fulfill me.

This time it is on my terms, so why am I nervous? I am nervous because it is on my terms. So now I am off to dust off my trapper keeper and pick out my first day of school outfit. Cross your fingers and wish me luck. I am sure it is going to be an interesting ride.

"in the long run, we shape our lives, and we shape ourselves. the process never ends until we die. and the choices we make are ultimately our own responsibility."

-eleanor roosevelt